Sunday, May 21, 2017

Day 50 - always having to be the pretty boy with the big toys and the big boys.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a huge ego.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to be a big boy, who wants the big toys, so that I can feel bigger than others, and then insert my knowledge into people who clearly see how full of shit I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be better than my fellow man/human/living beings, and only want the big boy toys for myself and feel big, so that others can bow down to my presence, not seeing and realizing that I m only comforting/conforming myself with bullshit status superficial gargan that I can therefor feel better and feel richer, and feel and experience all of these great superior motives and things that I just come up within my mind.